I am afraid..
that if I ever
fall asleep
I may just
never wake.

Or better still
find out
that none of it
was real.
Merely a dream
through which
I sleep-walked
wide awake.

Or better yet
find out
that I’m suspended
in a loop
of waking up
to find
that I am still
asleep.

Perhaps
the best solution
to this
halting problem
nightmare
is to never sleep.