I love you, baby..
I will show you
in the only way
I know..
by staying quiet
and pretending
that I do not care.
I’ll be both hot
and cold at once.
You will not catch me
either here or there.

The harder you surrender
to your love for me..
The harder, in response,
I shall resist.
And if you make
the grave mistake
of offering your heart to me
upon a silver platter..
I’ll literally just forget
that you exist
or that your feelings matter.

The moment
that you find
the dignity
within yourself
to pull away..
I’ll cry in private..
I will pray to God for you
to change your mind
and stay..

But then, the moment
when again I hear the words
that I’ve been begging
(silently) for you to say..
I’ll take my prayers back
and tell you
that I didn’t want you
anyway.